I've somehow managed

to do it to myself again...fall for some semi-closeted boy who is just barely 18 years old. in addition to being totally sexy, he has the innate ability to say exactly what i need/want to hear just when i've had enough of the game playing and being ignored. i feel like such an idiot because i KNOW that if someone was telling me that they were interested in a guy who was pulling the same shit that JV is pulling, i'd be like, "get your act together","why would u want to get involved with an 18 year old boy anyway", or my personal favorite, "play the game and make him come to you." I JUST CANT. its one of those situations where i think about him CONSTANTLY; i wake up in the middle of the night and check to see if he is on line. did i forget to mention that i work with him? well i do, so i also take time to look GREAT for work, not even knowing if he is going to be there. then when he IS, i have to fight REALLY hard to make sure im not hanging around and crowding his space and shit. bottom line, i've got it bad & that ain't good. i know its terribly cliche' but he's like a drug, and i want a new one. HELP!!!